Is there something wrong with me?

As a counselor, I have experience in working on a variety of issues. You certainly have been through quite a bit and your feelings are justified. Wounds can heal, it's just a matter of how you deal with things. You have a right to feel the way you feel, but you have to be responsible for how you deal with these feelings and the actions you take. Life can be better despite all that you have been through and are going through. Believe that it can. Part of healing and having a good life is changing your thinking and believing in you and the ability to make your life better, despite the past and the present, and then doing the positive things to make your life better. Focus on the positive about you and your life, despite others' judgments and criticisms. Feel good about you in the present while you work on making your life better. Appreciate what efforts you make, no matter what. Find healthy ways to cope with your feelings (writing, exercise, music, hobbies, etc.). When in a conflict, try to breathe and think about what you say and do before you say and do it and if you are getting too heated, let the other party know that you need to take a time-out to calm down so that you don't lose control, and then come back to the situation once you have calmed down. Consider seeking counseling to deal with all of the feelings and stuff you have been through. This doesn't have to be it for the rest of your life. It can be better.